Alright so this week hasnt been so good. Especially since thursday. I have learnt my lesson to never go for training when you are sick. And I learnt it the hard way. Was really dissappointed in myself and still am.

I know that I suck eh. I know that my rowing and my physical level is way low. I dont need you being all sarcastic about it behind my back. If you got a big mouth that sprouts so much of crap why not say it to my face? Dont go whisper here and there. Its like being a kid, sneaking in insults behind peoples' backs. Be a man and come tell what you want to say. Man I can handle all the crude comments, the inuslts and everything else. But to actually act supportive and friendly during trainings when after all that backstabbing? That justs pisses me off. I'd rather you keep your encouragements to yourself or to someone who actually cares for it.

But I'd like to say a big THANK YOU to that someone. I was initally really pissed and wanted to rant and bitch alot more about that someone and the comment that was made (which I heard even though it was not meant for my ears). But then after some thought, a THANK YOU is more in proper. THANKS TO YOU I finally have the motivation I needed. I guess I was starting to lose the little motivation I already had. But now all of it and more is starting to come back to me. I didnt think a day would change all that. So again a big THANK YOU to you for lighting the fire in me. Because now that I have a goal, I am going to start being serious. Next time I'll make you eat your own words plus a boot or two.

Ah that felt so much better, to finally let it out. But then there is another thing that I am worried about. I hate having my intentions misunderstood. Ah crap though I know you'd read this, I aint going to try and explain myself here. I found this on the net and I'd rather you read this.

Significhi molto per me, solamente vedere la tua faccia sorridente o sentire la tua voce, si rasserenano i miei giorni peggiori e li fanno veramente migliori.
O semplicemente parlare con te, mi fa caldo e solletica dentro.
Sei sempre nei miei pensieri.
Camminarei mille miglia per vederti solamente per un minuto.
Sono innamorata di te e sono innamorata di te dalla prima volta che ti ho visto.

Hope this explains enough ? Right I know I haven't written anything for like so long. Like really really long. And half the time the whole thing wasnt working. So to all my avid readers I am sorry. Well if there are any.

Well many things happened the during the holidays till now. Good, Great, Bad , Boring and everything else you name it I guess it might have happened.

So its been 3 weeks since school has started. And it hasnt been the greatest feeling to be back there. Nothing has gone right since the April 14th. My modules are crap. I dont get what is up with everything. What gets me the most is Maths. I think if I didnt have to take this crappy maths modules the past year my GPA would have been 120340320 times better. I have been getting D's for maths and I guess its been dragging me down. I guess its going to happen again this sem. Ah well I just hope that I dont fail and have to retake it again.

Also I would like to say sorry to the people who have tried to call my phone and not gotten through. I plan to get everthing sorted out by next week. So please wait till then. oh till then MSN offline msges work fine dont they? I'll get back to you asap I think. Oh I guess sending offline msges while you are out and supposed to meet me or something is a little tough. So if its to meet up then can I please ask to wait till I sort things out. Other than that MSN is the way to go I guess.


Well then I am off, need to clear all the homework I've accumulated till now. Starting with....what else but My Favourite, Maths. Alright 2 major happenings this week.haha alright only 1(second part).

So its the second day of CNY. I was invited to my ex-neighbours place on Wednesday. I have known them for like 14 years but they moved last year. Now that I think about it, I guess you can say they are like my other family and well the reason why I am not-so-indian (according to people I know,though I firmly believe I am EXTREMELY INDIAN). So I went visiting or in chinese/english bai nian-ing. It was all cool though after all the eating and stuff but it was totally like a gambling den after . I am serious, 2 mahjong tables and 4 groups playing tai ti ? That is extreme. But according to Uncle Ramon (his unofficial english name, its a trend like EVAN hmmm?) its a good stratergy. If you lose at mahjong, go and earn it back at tai ti, if you lose at that too, you know its time to go watch tv or something. So I played it smart, I started with tai ti first. You know to build up capital. Then I went on to mahjong. There was this auntie, cant remember her name, this was her reaction "HUH!! You can pa-ly(really she said that) mahjong?". So I played for quite a while and wanted to continue but the England game started.

Alright enough about CNY, the Main reason I am real happy about is well my gift from Anne. I kinda got it on Monday. Way early for Valentine's dont you think but heck so is mine. Well sending stuff overseas really generally suck. In any case Thanks Aaaaalot, I really really like mine and I do hope you like what I got you, you better after all the trouble I went through haha

Anyway this is what I got, a hoodie and a card(but I shall not put it here, too personal haha), looks totally cool(& 0.00001% beng?) but 2 reasons why I will wear it no matter what, 1) its from Anne? 2)hmm...its from Anne?