A Dream worth Dreaming

2008-05-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

Alright so this week hasnt been so good. Especially since thursday. I have learnt my lesson to never go for training when you are sick. And I learnt it the hard way. Was really dissappointed in myself and still am.

I know that I suck eh. I know that my rowing and my physical level is way low. I dont need you being all sarcastic about it behind my back. If you got a big mouth that sprouts so much of crap why not say it to my face? Dont go whisper here and there. Its like being a kid, sneaking in insults behind peoples' backs. Be a man and come tell what you want to say. Man I can handle all the crude comments, the inuslts and everything else. But to actually act supportive and friendly during trainings when after all that backstabbing? That justs pisses me off. I'd rather you keep your encouragements to yourself or to someone who actually cares for it.

But I'd like to say a big THANK YOU to that someone. I was initally really pissed and wanted to rant and bitch alot more about that someone and the comment that was made (which I heard even though it was not meant for my ears). But then after some thought, a THANK YOU is more in proper. THANKS TO YOU I finally have the motivation I needed. I guess I was starting to lose the little motivation I already had. But now all of it and more is starting to come back to me. I didnt think a day would change all that. So again a big THANK YOU to you for lighting the fire in me. Because now that I have a goal, I am going to start being serious. Next time I'll make you eat your own words plus a boot or two.

Ah that felt so much better, to finally let it out. But then there is another thing that I am worried about. I hate having my intentions misunderstood. Ah crap though I know you'd read this, I aint going to try and explain myself here. I found this on the net and I'd rather you read this.

Significhi molto per me, solamente vedere la tua faccia sorridente o sentire la tua voce, si rasserenano i miei giorni peggiori e li fanno veramente migliori.
O semplicemente parlare con te, mi fa caldo e solletica dentro.
Sei sempre nei miei pensieri.
Camminarei mille miglia per vederti solamente per un minuto.
Sono innamorata di te e sono innamorata di te dalla prima volta che ti ho visto.

Hope this explains enough ?

2008-04-11T02:15:00.006+08:00

Right I know I haven't written anything for like so long. Like really really long. And half the time the whole thing wasnt working. So to all my avid readers I am sorry. Well if there are any.

Well many things happened the during the holidays till now. Good, Great, Bad , Boring and everything else you name it I guess it might have happened.

So its been 3 weeks since school has started. And it hasnt been the greatest feeling to be back there. Nothing has gone right since the April 14th. My modules are crap. I dont get what is up with everything. What gets me the most is Maths. I think if I didnt have to take this crappy maths modules the past year my GPA would have been 120340320 times better. I have been getting D's for maths and I guess its been dragging me down. I guess its going to happen again this sem. Ah well I just hope that I dont fail and have to retake it again.

Also I would like to say sorry to the people who have tried to call my phone and not gotten through. I plan to get everthing sorted out by next week. So please wait till then. oh till then MSN offline msges work fine dont they? I'll get back to you asap I think. Oh I guess sending offline msges while you are out and supposed to meet me or something is a little tough. So if its to meet up then can I please ask to wait till I sort things out. Other than that MSN is the way to go I guess.

That one week was great. That pleasent suprise alone made my whole holiday.

Well then I am off, need to clear all the homework I've accumulated till now. Starting with....what else but My Favourite, Maths.

2008-02-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

Alright 2 major happenings this week.haha alright only 1(second part).

So its the second day of CNY. I was invited to my ex-neighbours place on Wednesday. I have known them for like 14 years but they moved last year. Now that I think about it, I guess you can say they are like my other family and well the reason why I am not-so-indian (according to people I know,though I firmly believe I am EXTREMELY INDIAN). So I went visiting or in chinese/english bai nian-ing. It was all cool though after all the eating and stuff but it was totally like a gambling den after . I am serious, 2 mahjong tables and 4 groups playing tai ti ? That is extreme. But according to Uncle Ramon (his unofficial english name, its a trend like EVAN hmmm?) its a good stratergy. If you lose at mahjong, go and earn it back at tai ti, if you lose at that too, you know its time to go watch tv or something. So I played it smart, I started with tai ti first. You know to build up capital. Then I went on to mahjong. There was this auntie, cant remember her name, this was her reaction "HUH!! You can pa-ly(really she said that) mahjong?". So I played for quite a while and wanted to continue but the England game started.

Alright enough about CNY, the Main reason I am real happy about is well my gift from Anne. I kinda got it on Monday. Way early for Valentine's dont you think but heck so is mine. Well sending stuff overseas really generally suck. In any case Thanks Aaaaalot, I really really like mine and I do hope you like what I got you, you better after all the trouble I went through haha

Anyway this is what I got, a hoodie and a card(but I shall not put it here, too personal haha), looks totally cool(& 0.00001% beng?) but 2 reasons why I will wear it no matter what, 1) its from Anne? 2)hmm...its from Anne?

2008-02-02T19:32:00.001+08:00

I wanted to blog at first but then as I wanted to start typing I realised that I really have no idea what to blog about...well I could blog about what happened in my everyday life, but it gets boring while reading it and it is sure as hell boring for me to actually type it. Ah well since I am here I might as well type something.

So CNY is in like several days and I cant wait. Ok I know you are wondering why I( I am indian if you dont know!) am eagerly waiting for CNY. It's because of Mahjong and also the food and other stuff.
But I dont know why but ever since I learned it, I have been addicted to it. Damn it's totally cool(and addictive) well if you win really big and hope you dont lose equally as much. Well I already got invited to two of my friends place, which I am totally looking forward to.

Alright back to finally enjoying my long awaited, Stay Home Saturday.

I knew when you left, the distance will keep us apart.
But trust me when I say this, the distance, no matter how far,
won't change how I feel about you.

2008-01-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

To sum up today, Training in the morning, project in the afternoon, AGM in the evening. All in all turned out alright, except for the fact that I lost my Handphone!

So I got the final medical result on my shoulder on thursday. The doctor told me last month that there is a huge possibility I will definetly need surgery to at least have 90%+strength/use of it. Now my worst fears are confirmed which totally sucks. As she explained it, I just sat there with a blank look on my face. She actually thought that I was too shocked that I needed surgery, but truth is i just didnt get all the medical terms she used(but also a little shocked, who wouldnt be?). It doesnt hurt as much with the tape but it can only help that much. Well in anycase she did say that the choice is mine but I will have to know my limit when it comes to training and stuff.
Alright This is a difference in X-ray.

Normal Mine

Oh on another note I had my Web Publishing EXAM on friday. Even though all my other papers start in Feburary, this was way early. I am totally screwed for it well maybe will barely pass it. So I can only hope my projects will help in the final grade. Next Week will be full of presentations and final submissions of tutorials and stuff. Well I aint that far behind in my work so its all cool.

2008-01-13T04:52:00.000+08:00

I nearly forgot i had a blog to update. So here goes then,

Right so its like 6 am here and 9am there in Melbourne. Thanks alot ANNE, I'll wake up very late again. Oh and Zhi, you at least know "sleepy head's" name now( oh cause you are...I mean you might be a little slow so things made simpler just for you, Anne = sleep head = Anne).
But I guess it's only on the weekends we can like talk for a long hours. So anyway before I tell you about my week and stuff, she said I wouldnt dare to type "mi manchi molto" here after I knew the meaning, but hey she dared the wrong person so, Anne mi manchi molto - also. HAHAHA. You know I mean it(ok I think I am going to be made fun of more for doing that).

Alright that done, the past week has been well.....tough. Havent gotten enough sleep and am really tired. Too many stuff and school work to do. I got tons of project, homework and coaching to do. Without the coaching I think I wont be that tired. I cant belive I'm actually helping a N'lvl student. Hahaha bet you are laughing your socks off but hey I'm serious. Well its only till mid- feb. And at least I'm getting paid a little. So I dont really mind. In any case once I am done with the pojects by next week, I seriously need to replace it with work.

So I think I'll just end it here. I am too lazy to continue and I need to go to Suntec early tomrrow.

2008-01-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

Well I was going to blog yesterday, but I was too tired. So I finally gotten my common test results and hell was I suprised. I managed to pass all 3 papers. Well I definetely thought I would fail EG2 maths, but hey thanks to Ron(my classmate)who taught me everything i needed to know for maths in the span of 3 hours (just before the paper) I managed to get like 60 for it. So that made me happy as hell. So unlike last Semester I dont have any retests I need to waste my time over. And that made me happy as hell.
Alright and it feels great to go back to DB training. Well I was supposed to go for one on thursday, but something came up.

Oh 6 days late and before I forget, ushering in the new year turned out to be cool. Spent the 31st with Kt, Zhi and eveybody else. Went to view the fireworks and then went to hang out at Clark quay till the very late. The next day, went to a party at Mike's place (some guy i know through NCC camp) I havent talked to him in like 6 months and he suddenly called me up. I thought he didnt have enough people or something but hell his place was crowded. Thanks to that I missed the first day of school.

So I guess thats about it for this week.

2007-12-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

A brief summary of my week so far,

On Monday went back to school for school work( I was really hardworking even though it is the holidays). Then out with Zhi, Leonard, Kt, Bridget, Cheryl. Watched Alvin & the Chipmunks. If you think singing and dancing chipmunks are the best thing yet, then this is a movie for you. Well it was alright at some parts but worth 7 dollars? Maybe not. I'd rather wait for it to be shown on Tv. But it depends on your own opinion I guess.

Kt's(in the middle) impulsive photo taking idea in the toilet.

Tuesday, back to school in the morning and then went to gym at Clementi in the evening.

Wednesday Gym-ed in school. Saw Zhi & Clement in the gym, and later at night was supposed to go club with all of them due to it being Cheryl's birthday. But hell it was crowded ( you had to be there to know). The rest managed to go in since they were early. But me, Zhi and Jeremy didn't go in, well more like couldn't cause we went later it and it was full house.

And well guess thats it for the past three days.

2007-12-13T02:03:00.000+08:00

SO I plan to keep it short his time round. Right well its been about 2-3 weeks since the last post. Well its the common test week in NP now. Well I am exactly done with all my papers today being the last one. I guess all I can do now is to hope for the best. Though I already know the outcome of not being completely unprepared.

And I've got 2 weeks break. But it will be filled with gym, soccer at clementi and staying home on other days. Nothing else to do really till school starts again.

Well I guess nothing else interesting happened these few weeks, so I will end it here.

2007-11-27T13:19:00.001+08:00

Alright I am in class and I'm fucking pissed. I only got 4 hrs of sleep last night doing my home work( YES I DO HOMEWORK) also hoping some retard would e-mail me his work so Ican complie & submit it and go to sleep by . He was supposed to e-mail me at 10 pm. But no...he sent it to me 6 in the bloody morning! Any non mentally RETARDed person would know most people would be asleep at 6(and i have to submit it at 10 am), but I guess he isnt your average mental retard(oh and he thinks he is the group leader!what rubbish). I guess you could say he would be worst. No offence to the mentally unstable people, cause he may even be an insult to them.

And so because of him, I went late to class, slept through my big test and I cant go for the run I wanted to today because I am bloody sleepy. My day has been going from bad to worst because of him. And he still has the bloody balls to tell me this:

FrozenInTime-
mountains and overhead clouds ...where the wind blows and sun rises /.life's like just a little prayer. said:
coffee decrease stamina

Why in the world do you think am I drinking coffee? What a FAG. I hope the sun melts his sorry ass, the wind blows and he sees a cloud shaped like my finger as he fucking falls from the moutains(sorry, I came up with that on the spot to express my anger).

What I am upset about really is my test. I had a big test today and I slept through the whole thing. I looked through the questions and was starting the first question. Next thing i know my phone is ringing and my lecturer is collecting the papers. It was blank and i was too blur to even ask the lecturer to give me more time. Ah no point in worrying about it now i guess.

On a final note, WHY AM I ALWAYS GROUPED PEOPLE whom cant use the most important thing they have.( THE BRAIN PEOPLE, THE BRAIN).

Oh and I am sorry to have made you read it. Well if you did then it shows you really really enojy reading what i write or/& you really have nothing to do. Thanks either way. See i am polite contrary to people's impression.

On a happy note,(man this is longer than I expected) a video of a japanese storm trooper,

2007-11-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

I am bored. I am not kidding by the way. If I wasn't I would not be here typing this at this very moment. So I have come to the conclusion that blogs were made for people who are REALLY bored, and the people who come and read have NOTHING to do. This is my third post and I already have come to that conclusion.
Ok Sern Zhi I understand why your blog is like what it is.

Well nothing interesting ever happens. It's school, training(rare, be it self or school) or I am out doing stuff, oh and I go MIA according to Jeremy and all (I wont deny that). Its like a really really boring cycle. Thank god there is EPL. It gives you something to watch.

Speaking about that , I need to say this, ARSENAL IS TOP assholes(Thanks Bolton). Random- but I've always thought it was ironic that ARSENE WENGER went to the club. (for people who are a little slow) ARSENAL and ARSENE get it? If you don't then you seriously need help. But I actually thought they would draw the game against Wigan, but hell 2 goals in two minutes?Totally cool stuff. I wanted to talk about Man Utd, but nah.....that will be a long one.

Ah well I am sorry for all my 3 posts being wordy(at least I posted videos). Wait aren't blogs supposed to be wordy?

I totally forgot to add this picture, Now you tell me wouldn't you fire him?

2007-11-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

Alright I will start with saying WASN'T I right about the freaking score?!! Well not the score by how England will lose? Damn I should have bet, I would have been BLOODY rich. But seriosly who would have thought they would lose (at HOME!!!) after being given a lifeline with Russia's defeat and despite a thrilling David Beckham-inspired comeback.
Thank God for 250 million dollar man. I think if given a chance even Singapore can beat them (Ok just a 0.00001%, but stilll.....). Finally that rubbish of a coach McClaren has been sacked. Even with the defeat I think the bars in london will be full of people drinking to that. At least they have something to celebrate about. But I do hope that they get their act together with all the talent they have in that country(Except Crouch, he's just tall & bloody lucky).

Ok so this is how my day went,
So i WAS supposed to go for COM Tool Kit(only lesson for the day) at 8 am, but I woke up at 8.05 am so I thought whats the point. So I did the next best thing, I went back to bed. Later I had a dental appointment (was supposed to go to my aunt's place and gym with zhi after it), but i figured that if i did, i would so most likely fail my three tests on friday. So I came back and have been studying till now, which is about 12.40 am. Well then I am off to stock up on the coffee and back to the books again.

And another Video before you go, this time a thai beer commercial.

2007-11-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

Well I think I should start blogging. Sern Zhi says I am too secretive. Well I don't always tell people where I am, with who I'm with and what I am doing. But that doesn't make me secretive does it?

So let's start with today, school started at 11 and ended at 4. Like any other day, the lessons were bloody boring. But I guess the only reason people actually bother to go, is for the attendance and the friends they have there. You don't see someone actually going to class saying "Hmmm i wonder what wonderful things we are going to be learning today?"with a smile, do you? Well i guess there are but they generally wear glasses,behave a little weird and have books as their best friend.
NOTE: Jeremy you would fit in that category perfectly if you ACTUALLY read a book.

NP had a small IT FARE these few days. And there was this booth with a free spin&win lucky draw. The prizes were great (Panda Antivirus software,3 web cams,4GB DVDs,memory cards too i think). But who in the right mind will offer such prizes for free?! And you know how Singaporeans love to take advantage of freebies? It was too tempting so me and my 2 of my classmates tried it. We Won 2 freaking Web cams and a DVD. So worth missing 30 mins of lesson (best part we were still considered punctual since the lecturer didn't really care).

Alright back to how my day went, after my classes I went to the school gym and ran around the campus. My days have been like that for the past few weeks. I cant complain though, its not like I hate doing it. Besides it will benefit me in the months to come. And so that's pretty much what happened today.

Oh and before I go, I would like to say that England seriously don't deserve to qualify for the EURO 2008 final. I am sorry but i think the coach at the moment is rubbish and he has not done any good decisions since he has been there. So even though I was hopping for them to qualify in the early stages I have come to the point where I have lost faith. So my final guess later tonight they WILL LOSE to Coratia.

And that concludes my first post.

Watch this before you go...